It is not a dream

This is my personal testimony, a personal testimony I want to share with you. This is story of how, by the grace of God, I was taught the opened and revealed word of God that is given through the promised pastor at the time of Revelation. This is not a dream … it is all real.

Ever since I was only five years old, I attended a Presbyterian church where over the years, I diligently served as a Bible teacher and a youth mentor. Although I served and served at this church, I remember thinking I was not spiritually growing at all. Not only was I feeling spiritually dry, but no one in the youth group was growing either. Since I was not being spiritually fed, I decided to step down from leadership and attend service. After attending Sunday services, however, instead of getting replenished with God’s strength and the wisdom of the word, I felt only emptiness in my heart. I clearly remember thinking, “Why is God so far away? Why don’t I feel joy in my heart?”

To add to this, I saw so much corruption in the church. I learned that the main pastor, whose five children were immigration attorneys, was using church money to open a seminary. He also used it as a money-making opportunity by charging Korean immigrants for student visas. I remember seeing more than half of our congregation members present not to worship God, but sitting there waiting to see the pastor and his attorney children after service to obtain visa business deals. So many people knew of this, but because he was the “pastor,” everyone looked the other way. They never dared to confront him or his family regarding this reoccurring issue.

Ultimately, I decided to leave this church after many years of service. The next church I attended was so different than the first; it was a charismatic church that focused on praying in tongues, prophesying and the laying on of hands for healing. As soon as I started attending this church, I felt the emptiness in my heart quickly pass away. I thought I finally found what I was looking for. I always felt spiritually “high” every Sunday after service when people would pray over me and tell me their “words of prophecy and visions.” They would tell me everything I wanted to hear at that time, but in the end, all these words ended in disappointment when none of them were fulfilled. They all turned out to be inaccurate. Again, my “high” quickly disappeared and I felt I was sinking into a deeper spiritual hole.

It was then that God orchestrated something in my life I would never have fathomed. I was introduced to a “great Bible study” by my parents. Since I thought it would be beneficial to me at that time, I agreed and started this new Bible study. Once I started the study, it was like love at first sight. EVERY question I had about the Bible that accumulated over my entire life – every question that no one, including the pastors, could answer – they were ALL answered and unraveled to me through this Bible study.

What kind of questions did I have? Wow! There were so many, but I will give just a few. I had questions like, "Were the tree of life & the tree of the knowledge of good & evil literal trees with literal fruit? If these trees had literal fruit, what kind of fruit was it?" I learned all my life that they were apples. Then I thought, “Was God really this petty that He would get upset over Adam and Eve eating a literal apple? If this was merely a test of Adam & Eve’s obedience, was something petty as an apple really a source of temptation?" Also, "If Jesus died on the cross for our sins, why is sin is worse now in this generation than ever before? Does this mean Jesus’ death on the cross was in vain?" These are only a few of the millions of questions I had about the Bible that none of my pastors had clear answers to. Although there are so many denominations in the Christian world, there was one thing all the pastors I asked these questions had in common: they always gave me the same answer to every question. Their answer was always, “Just have faith. There is no way anyone could know everything about the Bible. Let’s ask Jesus when He returns.”

This is the way I grew up in the Christian church. This was my Christian life. Although I didn’t understand anything in the Bible, I thought it was okay. Although my questions were not getting answered, I thought it was something I can ask Jesus when He returned. It wasn’t until I learned this Bible study that I realized how superficial my life as a Christian had been. What I learned completely knocked my socks off. My Bible teacher gave me the verse Mt 7:21, which says that not everyone who says ‘Lord, Lord’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of God. Was I doing the will of God? Check. Yep, I was. But then she had me read the next verse. *GASP* It turned out prophesying in God’s name, driving out many demons and performing many miracles was not the will of God. As a matter of fact, Jesus called them evildoers. She asked me, “Is it not the Christians who are saying ‘Lord, Lord’ and doing all these things?” I was speechless. My mind was spinning, and I felt a sharp pain in my heart. Probably from the guilt that was piled up so high for being a superficial Christian all these years.

Since God is Spirit (Jn 4:24) and cannot be grasped with our five senses, how else would He have communicated with His people? Through His word of course (Jn 1:1)! This is such a simple concept, but still, I was a Christian who had never really searched or examined the Scriptures. So I just had to ask her. "Where is this Bible study coming from? Is it from a Christian author or book? Who was the first to teach it? Why don't more people know about this study? Why is it that none of the pastors I have met in my lifetime could unravel even a fraction of what I am learning through this Bible study?" I was in shock and utter amazement.

Then I learned about the promised pastor who eats the opened scroll in Revelation 10 – the one who comes figuratively as Apostle John and is commanded to prophesy again about many nations, languages, peoples and kings. I learned that at the time of Revelation, Jesus will reveal and open the word of God to one pastor. That is right...ONLY ONE. Again I was shocked. Why only one pastor? I couldn’t swallow this at first, but again, I was being taught the word of God only referencing the word of God itself. The answer I found was that this is because Jesus gives the opened scroll to only one pastor (Rev 10:9-11)! Even if anyone desired for other pastors to have or receive the opened and revealed word of God, it is not in their control because Jesus promised He would give it to only one pastor.

Everything came together like pieces of a puzzle finally! According to Isaiah 29:9-14, it was prophesied that God sealed the scroll and as a result there was no one who could understand or interpret the word of God. Why would God, who loves us so much, do this to us? Why would God who gave us the Bible for us to read and understand seal it spiritually so that no one could understand it? The answer I learned was written in verse 13. God had no other choice. He had to seal it because of sin that entered ever since the time of Adam, and also because our hearts were so far from Him. This all ties into Mt 7:21, where so many Christians today, with myself being the guiltiest, only offer lip service to God. This is not recorded only at the time of the Old Testament, but also at the time of Revelation (Rev 5:1-5). This means that it did not just happen at the time of Jesus’ first coming, but it will also happen again at the time of Revelation, His second coming! No wonder none of the pastors I asked biblical questions could unravel the word of God!

Why am I sharing all these things with you? Because I wanted to share with you a little glimpse of God’s grace. I am a Christian. I am still a Christian. I read the Christian Holy Bible. I love God and Jesus with all my heart. But it is written that if we truly love Christ, we will obey His teachings (Jn 14:23). Shouldn’t we then, as Christians, understand what Jesus’ teachings are truly about? What are the secrets of the kingdom of heaven? What does the parable of the yeast mean? How about the parable of the ten virgins? What about the prophecies of Revelation and the prophecies regarding the end of age Jesus left us?

I want to challenge you with these questions: What can explain why we could not understand everything that is written in the Bible? What can explain why pastors who have graduated from seminary and theology professors who have dedicated their lives to studying God's word still say the word of God is a big mystery? Why can't anyone interpret the book of Revelation? Why are there so many holes in the word of God? Why are there are so many contradictions in the word? Why are there a billion interpretations of God’s word? If we are truly Christians who love God and Jesus, shouldn’t we at least ask ourselves these things?

All these questions I listed above, including all the questions I had about the word of God have ALL been answered for me after learning from the promised pastor who appears in Revelation. Please do not take this the wrong way. I am not boasting about how much I know. I am only boasting about God’s grace that He has given to someone as pitiful and useless as myself. I would have never fathomed that I would finally understand the deep mysteries of Christ, and I would have definitely never understood that I could meet the promised pastor who receives the opened and revealed word of God from Jesus at the time of Revelation. You don’t have to believe me, I am only an imperfect, tiny nothing in this world … but you should believe in the word of God shouldn't you?

I want to leave you with this verse:

8"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. 9"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isa 55:8-9)

This is really not a dream; it is all very real. We are living at the time of Revelation. Feel free to find out for yourself. If you don’t find out for yourself, what if you regret it? If you follow the media and man’s thoughts instead of the word of God, what if you find out that you have been on the wrong road all this time? If answers to the secrets of the word of God really exist, shouldn’t we search for them and learn those answers from the one who has them?